UNWORDY

I hesitated for some time about this post. I mean, it belongs to a short, but real tradition of mine on my different blogs and different identities — except that I broke my own tradition at least once (maybe twice?) in the past few years. I guess it’s best to take it then as an… isolated case of return to tradition! In any case, here it is:

LOST:

- The Man I felt I could spend the rest of my life with

- One mitten and the matching tuque (although they were lost on separate occasions)

- Lots of clothes (for I don’t fit into them anymore)

- The idea that it’s okay to have no life outside of my job

- The idea that being a woman in the academic world doesn’t change a thing at all

- A few courses I loved to teach (see below)

FOUND:

- Tenure

- A chairing position for the next three years

- A (small) research grant

- A few pounds around the waist

- The necessity of caring for myself

- A great new colleague and friend

- More white hair on my head

- (Again) the desire to kiss strangers

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The reason I hesitated to do this end of the year round-up is now clear: it all seems so boring! Finally get tenure, lose your love, gain weight, blah blah.

The thing is, I had never anticipated this whole life of mine. I had not prepared for what is considered «the real thing». Somewhere between 2009 and 2010, I ended up having all that we are supposed to dream of in terms of stability.

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I had not prepared for stability. And it’s a good thing, too, because some of it just blew up in my face.

I had never imagined what «being 36 years old» would mean.

And well, to tell you the truth, I’m stumped. All I know is that the whole love-in-the-hallways, mid-semester madness and never-sleep-but-it’s-okay part of my life is over. I still have to figure out what to do with… the rest of it.

Happy new year everyone!